BlackwingCosplay

That realization of how much of a horrible/interesting person I really am.....if you comment on the one you want to know about and ask really nicely I will tell you the story behind it.

[x] smoked
[x] consumed alcohol 
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex 
[x] kissed someone of the same sex 
[x] kissed someone of the opposite sex 
[x] had someone in your room other than family
[x ] watched porn
[x ] bought porn
[x] tried drugs
TOTAL: 10

[x] taken painkillers
[x] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend
[x] snuck out of the house
[x] done something illegal 
[x] felt hurt
[x] hurt someone
[x] gotten into a fight (Verbal)
[x] wished someone to die
[] seen someone die. 
TOTAL: 19

[x] missed curfew
[x] stayed out all night 
[x] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist
[] received a ticket
[] been to rehab 
[] dyed your hair 
[x] been in an accident
[x] been to a club 
[] been to a bar 
TOTAL: 25

[x] been to a wild party.
[x] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[] had a spring break in Florida 
[] sniffed anything 
[x] wore black nail polish
[x] wore arm bands
[x] wore t-shirts with band names
[x] listened to rap
[x] owned a hardcore metal CD
TOTAL: 32

[x] dressed gothic
[x] dressed lolita
[] dressed girly
[x] dressed punk
[x] dressed grunge
[x] stole something 
[x] been too drunk to remember anything
[x] blacked out
[x] fainted
[x] laughed at someone's pain
[x] had a crush on a neighbor
TOTAL: 42

[x] had a crush on a friend 
[x] been to a concert.
[x] dry-humped someone
[x] been called a slut 
[x] called someone a slut
[] installed speakers in your car 
[x] broken a mirror 
[x] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush. 
TOTAL: 49

[] considered Ludicrous your favorite rapper
[] seen an R-rated movie in theater
[] cruised on mail 
[x]skipped school
[x] had surgery 
[x] had an injury 
[] gone to court 
[x] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[x] caught something on fire
[x] lied about your age 
TOTAL: 55

 

[] owned/rented an apartment/house  
[x] broke the law in the police's presence  
[x] made out with someone who had a gf/bf
[x] got in trouble with the police
[x] talked to a stranger
[x] hugged a stranger 
[x] licked a stranger 
[x] been verbally harassed
[x] been physically harassed
TOTAL: 63

[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online 
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[x] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight 
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight 
[x] been to a fair
[x] been called a bad influence 
[x] drank and drove
[x] prank-called someone
[x] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex 
[x] cheated on a test

 

GRAND: 73

If You Have Less Than 10...Write [I'm a Goody Goody]
If You Have More Than 10...Write [I'm average]
If You Have More Than 20...Write [I'm bad kid]
If You Have More Than 30...Write [I'm a bad influence]
If You Have More Than 40...Write [I'm a horrible person]
If You Have More Than 50...Write [I should be in jail]
If you have More Than 60...Write [I should be shoot]
If You Have More Than 70...Write [I should be dead]

You all know that feeling, the feeling of pure and utter trust, the knowledge that hundreds of times people have let you down, those that you love dearest have let you down the most but here is something that you need help with or you want to know or perhaps you just want to spend time with them and even though you know that they let you down %99.9 percent of the time you just hope so slightly with that last little bit of hope and trust in your ever blackening and retreating heart ,that this might just be that %0.1, that this could be the time that they prove that you are not worthless and you are not a failure in life and that someone actually really does care for you in more than just passing by interest as the world seems to view you but real care, the care that is so hard and at this point in my life I believe impossible, to find.


I felt like that today and that %99.9 just turned into %100.

Sorry about if your still reading this, I just needed to vent and I don't have anyone in my life I trust enough right now that I can vent to, so random people on the internet that I don't know it is.